You are not the cause
of anyone mistreating you.
You are not the cause
of anyone disrespecting you.
You are not the cause
of anyone throwing poisonous darts at you.
You are not the cause
of anyone shouting at you.
You are not the cause
of anyone manipulating you.
You are not the cause
of anyone putting you down.
You are not the cause
of anyone attacking you.
You are not the cause
of anyone’ s hatred being directed at you.
You are not the cause
of anyone violating you.
You are not the cause
of anyone’s pain.
Abuse abuses innocence
to justify the pain it is feeling
to turn you into the cause of their pain
in the hope for revenge, for justice.
In the hope that by destroying you
its pain can be resolved.
But ultimately it longs
to get its innocence back.
That is why it is drawn to you.
Yet your light is feared
as it represents
the cause of its original hurt.
It was abused when it was
pure openness and innocence.
Blaming itself.
Blaming innocence.
And so the cycle
of abuse continues.
My own innocence finally realises
that it was never to blame.
She rises tall.
Opening her chest.
Fully spreading herself across the earth.
She sees that she does not have to carry
anyone’s hurt or pain any longer.
Abuse is no longer excused
to continue its abuse.
A firm No arises.
Thank you for showing me
That I am not the cause of your pain.
That I am a bright and tall column of light.
a cathedral of warmth and natural joy.
Tender and firm.
I don’t want or need anything from you.
I wish you no harm.
I am here waiting.
I am here gazing.
I am here breathing.
I am here loving.
I take a few deep breaths in.
I breathe you in.
through my winged angel lungs.
All the way down into
the ground of Being.
Pure substratum.
Where you dissolve.
You can no longer harm me
or anyone else.
I am not afraid of your threats any longer.
I won’t restrict my breath
in your presence ever again.
Instead I breathe you in even more deeply.
The cycle of abuse ends here.
We are done.
