You have tried so hard
to turn yourself
into someone worthy
of love and attention.
To be seen. To be heard.
You feel like a failure.
You want to give up.
You have run out of energy.
You want to curl up
and go into hiding.
I follow your call.
I swim with you
to the bottom of the bottom.
Your tears fall to the ground.
A lake fills with your grief.
As I let myself sink into you.
Receiving all of your feelings.
My body softens.
The lake inside becomes
very quiet and still.
You have not failed me.
I can see now
that it is you
who has been failed.
By me, by us, by humanity.
We have failed to see you.
We have failed to hear you.
We have failed to give you our time.
We have failed to honour you.
We have failed to respect you.
We have failed to praise you.
We have failed to love you.
We have failed to recognise your true value.
You have been failed.
I am so sorry that I have failed you.
I am so sorry that we have failed you.
Now there is nowhere else
I would rather be
than to be here with you.
To get to know you.
To give you my love.
To shower you with my attention.
To honour and respect you.
You start to bloom.
Your dignity is slowly restored.
You gently shower me
with all of your gifts.
I realise that
I only every truly wanted you.
You are my innocence.
You are my light.
You are my sacred ground.
I will no longer fail to praise you.
~Judith~
